One of my goals in life is to try to spread a little sunshine in times when things get rough. I don’t intend to force it on anyone who a has terrible situation they are dealing with. Rather I want to put a spark of light out there for anyone who is ready to make it glow. There are others with different callings in this world. This is one of mine. I think the first part of the prayer of Saint Francis of Assisi expresses my sentiments well. But I am not as good on all of them as I think I am with the joy sowing.
Lord make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is dispair, hope;
where there is darkness , light;
where there is sadness, joy;
When I was a child my parents woke us kids each morning with the words, “Rise and shine.” I guess I took that to heart since I still- now it is just a little slower getting started- wake up every morning with a happy, expectant outlook for the day. My father was a very positive influence on my disposition and taught us kids well about trying to make the best of bad situations.
I try to put the negative events of the previous day into the past and proceed with a fresh slate for the new day. This attitude can be taken too far I realize and become an habitual denial of the negative events of the past day, thereby often not allowing resolution of pain. Sometimes this denial is a coping mechanism when you can not handle what you have experienced. In my case for many years, it held me in good stead. You can read about these experiences some in a couple of my blogs. But even those painful experiences made me the me I am today! I like the me I am now.
When life got rough, I actually wanted so badly to be happy that I tried to make the environment around me as happy as I could make it. This was a good behavior for my family, me, and as a nurse, often for my patients.
That said, I am now a more truly joyful person. My past is resolved or almost so. I have so much in my life that is good and positive and it just keeps getting better.
I even smile at strangers and have noted a true sincere smile return to me from their faces. I speak to those poor souls who get ignored as they stand behind the cash register or provide some unappreciated service to others. They always smile and thank me. One lady even opened up and told me of a concern she was worried about. I have been told that I have a positive affect on many of the people I come in contact with. This makes me very happy!
So I wanted to name my blog something to do with joy. Since I have used joyful2beme as a pseudonym for reviews, I wanted to make the blog’s title stand out as unique. I made “be” into “bee,” so some grammar Nazi would say, “Oh, that is a typo!” And continue to read to see if I really didn’t know how to type or spell. LOL. Not really. But it does make my “typo” more memorable because it is different. Then I shortened the name by dropping the me to make it easier to remember.
The expression of my joyfulness to be me is still present. I hope this continues to work. So far it has.