I am a very positive person; I try to see the good in bad situations when possible. Many times in the past I was accused of “looking at the world through rose colored glasses.” Yes, in all honesty I was and am an optimist.
Now that I am a senior citizen I have a better understanding of what life is all about; I’ve experienced some truly trying times; experienced pain and suffering first-hand; witnessed pain as a wife, a mother, a friend and as a nurse. I believe my attitude helped me survive these rough times.
But…when I hear in the news of some group of terrorists killing innocent people and children; or some murderer causing pain or killing someone out of anger, hate, or prejudice, I admit that I have much less than kind, positive feelings. Sometimes I become overwhelmed with an unbidden sadness, rage, helplessness, pain, or hatred that wells up inside me.
Why would… how could anyone want to hurt anyone in such ways? How can anyone murder and maim people, whom they have never even met personally? How can they take their own lives for a cause that espouses this kind of behavior?
We all remember the horror of 9/11; still seeing over and over the destruction of our three huge buildings as the terrorists crashed into the Twin Towers, the pentagon and then the crash site of the plane carrying passengers and terrorists. How can anyone do these things?
I feel some of those old emotions, empathizing with the suffering of strangers in my own country. As I listen to the news I often have to get a grip on myself. I begin to sink into a darkness that I do not want in my life. I begin to wonder what if the evil ones come to my country in droves? Worse still my own city?
Then I realized as Shel Silverstein aptly described it, “The what ifs came crawling in!” What if they tried to break into my home? What if they tried to bomb a plane that one of my children was on? What if they hacked our computer system? What if we couldn’t buy food or gas with a downed internet system? What if I couldn’t reach my two sons and their families who live about an hour or more away? What if they couldn’t find me in the madness? Whoa!! Stop!
I pulled out of the well of misery and took a long hot shower. As I felt the water wash away the sweat from some heavy house work I had done earlier, I also washed away the fears and helplessness from my heart. Yes I was still angry and scared but less so.
But I realized there were some things I could do in addition to praying for God’s healing Light to help them. I live here and am too old to fight physically. But I am not too old to fight on the internet.
So what am I fighting? I can not fight the perpetrators on line. If I print words that stir up more hate, what am I accomplishing? (Perhaps more prejudice against innocent people of similar color, religion, or culture?) Not such a good idea.
Yes, writing these feelings out is good for me. But that is not my goal as I write this. We all have enough of it to work through without being burdened or inflamed by the words of someone else. (I admit, I feel like cheering every time I hear someone on the news talking about how people are joining together to stand against evil people who slaughter innocents.)
So what is my purpose if I don’t want to spread more hate, stir up more rage, or pray for death to the murderers, cruel, psychopaths who kill the innocents?
My mission in this life I believe is to try to send Love, Light, Peace and understanding wherever possible. (There is none to be seen in the heinous deeds committed.) In short nothing I do here, short of prayer for God’s intervention can halt the pain and suffering occurring in the countries affected far away or anywhere in the world.
Nothing I say or do can annihilate the evil that has possessed these crazed beings to make them stop what they are doing. Again, I have to leave that up to God, the military forces and the world powers that be.
So what can I do?
I can make a difference in some small way wherever I find myself. I support those, who are hurting, where I am by listening to their stories, with my words, by sharing, what I can, of my possessions or my time. I can volunteer to make a difference in my little microcosm of the universe.
I share humorous or inspirational quotes or stories on Facebook and my blog. I love fiercely those around me to show them that love is strong and lasting just like God’s love. I am an instrument of peace and love. But I must admit there are still times when I am not feeling charitable to those who are harming others. So what do I do?
After more recent attacks on innocent victims, I decided to do what those victims or their families did in their bravery. They set the best example for all of us.
1. We should stand strong and stand together! Anyone knows that an enemy divided is an easy victory for their enemy. Standing together makes us stronger.
2. We should offer assistance, no matter how feeble we may think it to be. Donate money, time, prayer, and listen to friends who need to talk through their pain.
3. We should continue our lives as normally as possible to not encourage those who think they can take over our little worlds!
4. We as a world should lift our military people and each other up in prayers, meditations, with our positivity through our lifestyles, with our hearts and our money, if necessary, to prevent the evil from stretching any further than it has.
5. We can put ourselves in the shoes of those around us. Be kind and compassionate. We never know what sadness someone is experiencing that we do not even know. Be kind to the new people, regardless of their color, race, sexual orientation, religion, or culture. Being judgmental does not help anyone.
6. We stand against paralyzing fears and prevent them from controlling our lives, squashing our loyalty to our country, or our love of life.
These suggestions won’t change the world, but they may change yours away from fear, hate, judgment and more towards, peace, love, and compassion. We are all in this together. Let’s please find a way to make things work out as equitably as possible.