I can understand. My problem was my husband, who after 14 years of marriage, discovered he had diabetes. His personality changed and he had a big stroke 10 years later. The brain MRI showed that he had had mini-strokes. He recovered well enough to hold his desk/computer job and walk with a cane. He passed away in 2009 from heart failure.
He had always taken care of the bills, etc. I took care of drawing up his insulin. He loved me still and apologized to our son and me on his deathbed. I had to figure things out and take care of our house and yard.
I later retired from nursing due to sciatica and scoliosis and not being allowed to lift over 15 pounds. The hospital put me on disability. I started my own photography business for 3 or 4 years. I had always felt he was more intelligent than I was. But after this, I realized that I’m no slouch in the intelligence department. He had a Doctorate in Old Testament theology. I had a three year nursing diploma and worked 17 years in ICUs or CCUs. The other 20 years, I worked on the heart floors. I know who I am and that I love God, life, people, animals, nature, music, and beauty.
I am more confident and love to figure out puzzles, do jigsaw puzzles and brain games on my cell phone or tablet. As I get older, I learn more about my abilities.
I care deeply about people of all kinds. Having been a nurse for 37 years, even though I am retired, I still love to offer help or assistance when there is someone in need. God put this love in my heart and I am so very thankful that He did.
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